What a life…
February 15, 2010 § 14 Comments
Today has been very emotionally charged. I am recognizing uncomfortable truths about myself, and wondering what might happen next.
See, I’m not terribly easy to get along with. Ask anyone who has known me for any length of time. I have a very intense personality, and a propensity toward compulsive brutal honesty.
I tend to overwhelm folks and make them very uncomfortable. Therefore, I have very few close friends. In the last year or so, I have been making new friends and broadening my horizons. But I find I am now at that stage in my new relationships where my passionate nature, and tendency to press my finger to tender spots, is starting to wear out my welcome. At least it feels that way.
The fact is, I don’t mean to be impolitic, or to be … too much. It really sucks, as a matter of fact, to feel like my very nature pushes people away. I really care a great deal about people, and always mean well. But it doesn’t matter if your good intentions are to drive nails if you keep hitting fingers. Folks are still getting hurt.
Please be patient with me, I’m not complete yet.